Too Polished?

I don’t like blogging platforms that force me to write a title first — something that my current platform of choice, Ghost, does. It is funny how I still stick with this platform. The reason currently is its ability to publish and host my newsletter — the dream of one platform for everything is alluring after all. Another aspect is the sheer polish of how the site looks.

But the polish is what kills my drive to write, to be frank. Every time I open the portal to publish my clumsy thoughts, I think the site does not deserve them. They are too ugly. Just like these. And it is not as if I haven’t gone down that rabbit hole earlier. I have tried Ghost multiple times over the years. I use it. I have these thoughts. I stop using it. This cycle has run itself many times now. Yet I keep burning myself up, signing up for the polish every time.

Why do I do that?

Of course, my eternal quest for change is one reason. And another is my dissatisfaction with my current online platform, whatever that platform is. I am never satisfied. Plus, I am tired of these meta posts. But they never end. And I am back again for the umpteenth time.

Everything has something that I like. Nothing has everything that I like. So the fight within continues.