I suck at routine

I should be deep asleep at this point. Instead, I am wasting my time reading stuff I had no inclination to catch up on. I opened the editor and then started reading older drafts. Anything but put some words on paper. It's so frustrating when I let that happen, because it happens often.

I finally decided to get typing, and the first thing that came to my mind is how I suck at routine. I routinely suck at routine. I will get into a routine, but soon stop the moment I have one going.

My threshold is a week or two, at best.

I do plan my plans. However, what's the point of so much planning if it's all going down the drain after a couple of weeks? This does sound like a defeatist attitude. But I do feel defeated with my lack of control.